I’ve sat down to write this several times and at each point where I put my fingers on the keyboard I have to step back and re-compose myself. It’s early in the morning and I am about to leave for the hospital. Approximately three weeks ago I visited with the latest doctor and was told that I have some sort of unknown mass on or near my pancreas that has doubled in size in the past year.

It was uncovered a couple of years ago during a normal exam and at the time the doctors decided to just watch it. Suddenly though things have changed and I have found myself meeting with multiple specialists and teams of doctors who all seem to be baffled by what they are seeing. Given a long history of cancer in my family the doctors feel it would be best to remove it as soon as possible. I attempted to negotiate a surgery at the end of the season but was told they did not wait until the end of the home stand.

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